Wednesday, July 27, 2011

It's a crazy life I lead

I have been doing something crazy the last few months. I have been internet dating. I decided to give it a try because I was not having any luck with the men out in the real world. Men do not approach me... or rather men that I would even think about dating. Sigh. So I joined Plenty of Fish and decided to see what would happen. It has been as much of a disaster as real world dating has been. I thought for a minute there, that it would be easy. I met this awesome guy. Fire Fighter, good looking, charming, funny, fantastic Father, a little bit wounded. We got along great, hours upon hours of talking, our dates were filled with laughter... and then he just stopped. And I got stupid. I forgot that I was pretty and funny and deserved more than someone who only wanted me when he wanted me on his terms. It's been 2 months, and I still think about him. I have tried dating others from the site. I have avoided far more from the site though. Why do men who I would never be attracted to contact me and say such crude things? I have people as old as 70 and as young as 20 hit on me on there. I am beginning to think there just isn't someone out there for me... I have now been single for almost 13 years, I have actively looked for someone, I have given up trying, I have worked on myself, blah blah blah and still I am alone. every man, I have been attracted to (and I will admit I am picky, and I'm not looking for a Brad Pitt look a like either) has only wanted me for short term... and with the exception of my Fireman... have all tried to come back after I have gotten over them, but not a single one of them have ever wanted to stick it out with me. Maybe there is something wrong with me. I needed some place to put all these thoughts and my Facebook was just not the place. lol

And while I'm here, I might as well post a pic of what I currently look like as I have managed to maintain my weight loss for over 2 years now.