Wednesday, July 27, 2011

It's a crazy life I lead

I have been doing something crazy the last few months. I have been internet dating. I decided to give it a try because I was not having any luck with the men out in the real world. Men do not approach me... or rather men that I would even think about dating. Sigh. So I joined Plenty of Fish and decided to see what would happen. It has been as much of a disaster as real world dating has been. I thought for a minute there, that it would be easy. I met this awesome guy. Fire Fighter, good looking, charming, funny, fantastic Father, a little bit wounded. We got along great, hours upon hours of talking, our dates were filled with laughter... and then he just stopped. And I got stupid. I forgot that I was pretty and funny and deserved more than someone who only wanted me when he wanted me on his terms. It's been 2 months, and I still think about him. I have tried dating others from the site. I have avoided far more from the site though. Why do men who I would never be attracted to contact me and say such crude things? I have people as old as 70 and as young as 20 hit on me on there. I am beginning to think there just isn't someone out there for me... I have now been single for almost 13 years, I have actively looked for someone, I have given up trying, I have worked on myself, blah blah blah and still I am alone. every man, I have been attracted to (and I will admit I am picky, and I'm not looking for a Brad Pitt look a like either) has only wanted me for short term... and with the exception of my Fireman... have all tried to come back after I have gotten over them, but not a single one of them have ever wanted to stick it out with me. Maybe there is something wrong with me. I needed some place to put all these thoughts and my Facebook was just not the place. lol

And while I'm here, I might as well post a pic of what I currently look like as I have managed to maintain my weight loss for over 2 years now.

Monday, March 07, 2011

Weigh in results

After refocusing Midweek, I came in at a 2lb weight loss for the week! It's the first time in 10 years that I have stayed in Onederland for 2 weigh ins! It's a pretty damn good feeling, and I'm pretty excited about seeing that 1 again next week. So here's to staying focused, eating healthy, getting my daily workout in, and believe ing that this journey is doable!

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

It's Wednesday!

There is something going on in my head... It happens every time I get to Onederland. I don't know why I do this but I hit 1 something on the scale and it's like a free for all with food entering my mouth. *sigh* I'm a little frustrated with myself. I'm not sure how Saturday's weigh in is going to go. I've stopped with the over eating and even spent 2 hours at the gym last night. I usually take Wednesday off from the gym, but have decided to go in and spend some time with an elliptical machine, to try to undo the damage I did over the weekend. I only have 6 more lbs to go before I hit a mini goal, I need to start focusing on that rather than what the number on the scale says, because the number on the scale seems to freak me out.

Does this happen to anyone else?

Also, I've been getting several compliments the last week about my weight loss. I've been maintaining for so long (almost 2 years) everyone has gotten used to the pretty, slightly chubby coworker/ friend/Mom, that now that I'm actively trying to lose weight again, people are noticing... and by people I mean men. And maybe that is what has me freaked out. I must ponder...

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Today's weigh in

I've been back at weight watchers for 6 weeks now. I have not been perfect at it. There have been times when I have wanted to just throw in the towel and say fuck it. Losing weight can be a frustrating process. I have goals this time now, before it was just to lose weight because the number on the scale was so astronomical. This time around, I have been far more realistic about losing weight. It's okay if the process takes a while. I'm okay with baby steps because I know in the end I will hit my goal weight.

With that being said this week I lost 2.8 lbs, for at total loss in six weeks of 14 lbs. Not too shabby. Another victory this week was getting on that scale and seeing my weight start with a 1!

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Long time no post

It was been over a year since my last post. In 2010, I began to live my life rahter than watch just pass me by. I basically did nothing to Lose weight, but worked hard to maintain the losses I achieved in 2009. And I can say I succeeded in that wildly. I lost about 5 lbs in 2010. I got a new job, within the company, that I love! I travelledd to Israel and Sweden, as well as a few places within the states for work. I fell in love, wildly passionately in love, and got my heart broke. I regret nothing I did in 2010, because I felt alive for the first time in years.

2011,is about getting the last 30 lbs I need to lose off. I have already started the year off on the right foot. I have hit the gym 7 of the first 10 days of the year and plan to keep up the pace. I do travel quite a bit for work, but have a plan to hit the hotel treadmills on my regular workout days. I have big plans for 2011 and this weight is not going to hold me back anymore!

I hope to get back to blogging regularly, because it really helped me lose weight in 2009.