Weekly Weigh In

So I had my first weigh in this morning and the official loss is 3.8 pounds. I'm pretty happy about that. It's a solid number. Not a huge Biggest Loser first week, but really IRL who actually loses 20 lbs in a week?

Anyway, this week I managed to go to two aerobic classes (something I've never done before), ate pretty healthy even when the people around me were quietly trying to sabotage me (who makes/brings cookies for you when you've announced you started Weight Watchers, really who does that?... besides the people I know), and lost almost 4 lbs in the end. I hope I can continue this into week 2.

Emotional eating

is something I really must work on. I was doing really well all weekend, normally my worst time sticking with any sort of program. Something about the weekend makes me really lazy. Anyway, my sister was upset yesterday because my Mom was teasing her about her feet. She kept saying she didn't care what anyone said about her feet and we all thought she was over it. Apparantly not. Later on she was making cookies (peanut butter with Reese's Peanutbutter cups, yummy) and I made a comment about them needing to go in the freezer (it keeps the Reeses from being melted crap) and she lost it on me, which in turn upset me so I went home... but not without my portion of those damn cookies. I ended up eating about 8 of them. Holy smokes they were good, but I felt like such crap because I wasn't hungry, I ate them because I was upset. So Stupid. I'm going to have to work extra hard in the gym this week just to ease my guilt.

Weight Watchers

So I actually bit the bullet today and rejoined Weight Watchers. I keep trying to do WW on my own but have had little success over the last year or so becausae I have not been accountable to anyone but myself at the scale. I'm excited and scared. The meeting today was about negative thinking. Something I am quite familiar with. Negative thinking is what got me into this mess to begin with. So I'm going to try and reinforce positive thinking in my daily life. *fingers crossed*

Day One of WW has consisted of eating out... because I was looking at model homes woth my sister. I left my house at 7:30 (to go to the WW Meeting) and I did not get back home until 3:30 PM. We ate breakfast at St. Louis Bread Company (Panera Bread for the non locals). Had a breakfast sandwich which was 510 calories which translates to 11 points. 11! and for lunch we went to Qdoba, where I had a naked chicken taco salad which was also 11 points! 22 points for what was basically not a lot of food. I'm still hungry and have barely enough point totals for something to eat. Thank goodness veggies are basically free points AND there are weekly flex points.

I'm going to the gym tomorrow to earn some activity points...

Why is is so hard to lose weight?

So this has been my daily question for weeks now. I'm struggling every day to lose ounces when I should be losing lbs. because there are so many to lose. I've been really good about the gym. I go almost everyday and struggle through an exercise routine, lots of cardio and then work on weight training as well. I've given up fast food and have tried to limit my portion sizes. My biggest struggle is still breakfast. I tend to use too many of my daily points on it. I've seen little to no progress and I can't help but get discouraged.

I found out this week that I have a "fatty liver" which is just one more problem that adds to the weightloss struggle. It's just one more reason why weight loss is so hard for my body. Between the PCOS and this liver issue my body just wants to store store store fat. However, now that I know about the fatty liver if I want to ever be healthy again I have to exercise everyday (well at least 5 x's a week) and I have to eat a low-fat low calorie diet. It will take time to correct my liver and until I do that weight loss is going to be difficult for me. My liver has to heal before my body can register weight loss... or something like that. I'm still struggling to understand it all, and trying to figure out how to stay positive and on track when the results appear to be non existant. It's not like I can look at my liver everyday and say "Oh look it's a little more pink today"

So the little tracker up there will probably stay at 5 lbs loss for a little while longer, but know that I'm still here in my little world trying to live a healthier lifestyle.

The gym

So I've managed to maintain a routine that includes a visit to the gym everyday this week, except for Monday because it was closed for Labor Day. I'm pretty proud of this because I've spent so many months making excuses for not going to the gym. After my initial weight loss of 5 lbs, I haven't managed to move the scale, so I'm hoping regular visits to the gym will help me along. Of course I have to figure out how to manage the hunger after I work out. I know some people aren't hungry after they work out, but I am not one of them. I'm usually really really hungry afer a good workout and my food intake at night has been out of control, except for tonight. I had soup and salad. So Yay me!