Argh! Hungry

I'm hungry and I have no idea what it is I'm hungry for. I had 1 super small cinnamon roll for breakfast this morning and it's just not cutting it. I want... something but I just don't know what. Sometimes it's really hard to make the right choice. I'm trying really hard to remember to eat to fuel my body so I can do other things. I need to remember to eat to live and not live to eat. Food should not be so complicated, and yet it is.

I'm just rambling... mostly I think I'm frustrated because I was at a Halloween party last night and saw the pictures and I looked like a beached whale, even with 11 pounds gone from my body. So I'm only just realizing how bad a place I've been in the last year. Please let me continue to live healthier because unhealthy just sucks.

Weekly Weigh In

Down 1.4 lbs! Yaaay, I'm so thrilled with this number. I thought for sure I was going to gain, maybe I should start trusting that I'm doing all the right things and accept that it actually works.

This past week, I did Zumba twice and the eliptical and weight training once. In Zumba I picked up the intensity so I spent more time in the higher intensity mode than in low intensity. I also did 20 minutes abs twice. My core muscles are still basically non-existant but I figure they'll continue to get stronger the longer I keep up the exercising.

I still wish the weight was coming off faster, but any progress is better than no progress at all.

Fun Night at the Hockey game

I would have done another class last night but I went to a hockey game instead. Blues vs Kings and before the game started I was pretty torn as to who I should be rooting for, as the Kings were my first love. I spent many a evening during my teens and twenties watching on TV or attending games at the Forum. However I've been a real fan of the Blues for the last six years and I'll be living in MO for a long time to come. However once the game started it became blatently obvious who I was rooting for and it was not the team of my youth. I have been fully assimilated to the Mid West. Go Blues! My team lost (0-4) but we got to see lots of these



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There was also a visit from Gov. Sarah Palin. She dropped the ceremonial first puck. Think what you want of her, but her daughter Piper is totally adorable and she's brought a lot of attention to the sport of Hockey, which is never a bad thing. Here are some pics from her stop.

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Recipe- Carmel Apple Salad

So at the WW meeting this weeks a recipe was posted that I actually made. It was totally yummy. I wish I knew who came up with it so I could give credit. I actually have a hard time eating apples, it's not that I don't like apples, but something about the texture is off for me when taking a bite of apple (it's hard to explain) but this was really good.

Carmel Apple Salaf

1- 8 oz Fat Free Cool Whip
1- 15 1/2 oz can Crushed Pineapple (do NOT drain juice)
1- package of Fat Free Sugar Free Butterscotch Instant Pudding
4- Apples (of any kind) diced

Mix Cool Whip and Butterscotch pudding together in bowl. Add Pineapple (with juice) in. Add diced apples mix. Refridgerate for about 1 hour. The whole thing is 12 Points. So 6 servings would be 2 points per serving)

It makes for a great Fall dessert.

Weekly Weigh in

It was a bit of close call for me. I was a horrible eater last week. There wasn't a cookie or brownie that I passed by last week. I had an unrepentent sweet tooth. Luckily, I ddin't make things worse by stopping for fast food on top of it, which is why I still managed a 1/4 lb loss rather than a gain! It's not much of a loss but the scale is still moving in the right direction.

Also helping is my continued visit to the gym. I did Zumba class 3 times last week. My legs and arms were sore and tired by Saturday. I still look like a total dork while doing the class because I am completely uncoordinated, but I'm having fun, losing weight and gaining muscle so it's working. I am having some trouble with my knees though, not while I'm working out, but if I keep my right knee bent for too long I feel some major pain in the back of my knee, so that's lots of fun. It really sucks getting old and being fat. I'm going to wait a while before I head to a Dr. just to see if they get better with a little more weight loss. I hope so. I really hate going to the Dr. I seem to only ever hear bad news from them anymore, and I'm getting a little tired of it. I'd like to go to a Dr. visit and be told I'm doing great instead oh somehting else is wrong with you and you need to lose weight, take a new pill, get anoth u/s etc. It the total suck.

Weekly Weigh In...

So this week at the weigh in I was down 2 lbs! I was so excited, I hope I can have another good week this week. I was pretty horrible over the weekend though, so it might be tough. I ate every sweet thing I saw this weekend. In fact, this morning I feel a little sick to my stomach. Usually by now I'll have had some form of breakfast but I just can't bring myself to put anything in my mouth. I feel pretty gross right now.

Tonight, instead of going to the gym I am going to an event called The Taste of the NFL. It's charity event hosted by the St. Louis Rams (I think) At least Rams players are supposed to be there and they might actually show up tonight because they finally won a game. I'm not a big football fan (hockey's my thing) but this should be pretty cool. Other than that, this week will be all about working out and eating healthy again. You know, the same ol' same ol'.

Weekly Weigh In

So another Saturday has passed and that means a weigh-in took place. And... I'm down another pound. Yep, that's right 1 freakin' pound. I have decided that I am not going to go out and "just eat a Salad" with my sister this week, because those restaurant salads have a lot of points in them. I'm never smart enough to calculate the points until after I've eaten them. So I'm saying no to my sister this week.

I even went to the grocery store and shopped healthy. I bought stuff for every meal and snacks and hopefully will see that push on the scale that I need. Because WW is becoming frustrating after 3 weeks because I've seen less than 5 lbs in weight loss.

If exercise is the key...

to weight loss, why haven't I lost more weight? I work my ass off in the gym at least four times a week and have very little show for it on the scale. It's frustrating to not see the results I want. I think it's the unrealistic expectations of weight loss that The Biggest Loser gives to normal people with normal lives. Don't get me wrong, I love the show and think it's really inspiring, but I can't help but be a little disappointed when on week 1 I lose 3.8 lbs and they contestants have 17 - 20 lbs losses. Obviously, I just need to get over myself and be happy there was a weight loss and that there have been improvements in my breathing (Hello! ex-smoker here!), stamina, and belly fat (yay, my stomach doesn't stick out quite so much).

I've been having a blast attending a Zumba class, which is a latin inspired cardio class. I'm totally uncoordinated, but the instructor is fantastic and encouraging and makes the whole thing fun... even when you think you are about to drop from exhaustion. The class is only 2 days a week though. I wish it were everyday, it's that much fun and you get so much out of it. I'd love it even more if I could get more weight loss to go along with the muscle toning. Tonight, I'm doing eliptical and weights.