The Biggest Loser

I'm an avid watcher. I'm always amazed at how much weight is lost and sometimes envious of those numbers. However, on tonight's episode there was a conversation that Jillian had with the daughter of the Pink Team. I cried, because I answered Jillian before the daughter did about why she was fat and my answer was almost identical to hers. Understanding why we are fat is a major part in the weight loss journey. I know I'm fat because it is a form of protection. No one wants to date a fat girl, so as long as I am fat I can't get hurt or rejected. I've buried myself in food for so long I was beginning to forget how to be happy. I want to be happy again. I want to feel good about myself again. I want to spend my life with someone who loves me fat or thin. I just have to figure out how to get there first.