I had a plan yesterday, and it completely went to sh*t! I was going to get to the gym at 4 and put in 2 hours of hard work, so the teen could swim at the pool for 2hours. Turns out, I forgot it was MOnday, and therefore my day to visit my Aunt at the nursing home. I left work at 2:30 and then went the wrong way, so wasted 10 minutes getting myself turned around and headed towards the nursing home instead of heading home. Put me in a horrible mood!
After I left my Aunt, my daughter calls and asks me to go to JC Penney's to pick up a second bathing suit for her. She just got a brand new one, but she wanted to other one she tried on the other day. So I cave (yes, sometimes it is just easier to do that than argue of a trivial thing like a bathing suit) head to JC Penney only to find out they are all out of size small, so another bit of time wasted! My level of frustration just went up another level. I can't even explain why I was so upset over how my afternoon went. I had a total emotional breakdown. Tears, anger, sadness the whole thing was absolutely ridiculus.
I ended up not getting home until 4:30. I was really upset about this and almost decided to not go to the gym at all. I decdided that would be a huge mistake, so I quickly got dressed, dropped the kid off at my brother's so she could go swimming and finally! get to the gym at 5 PM. I did 62 minutes on the elliptical and 20 minutes of strength training (arms only) and felt fantastic afterward. My mood completely changed. Gone were the tears and the negative self talk. I have a few things that I need to change in my life and I'm trying, but the bottom line is my life may be a little boring but it's still a pretty darn good life to have. I learning how to be happy. I will get there someday soon.
In NSV news, I bought a size 14 pair of pants this weekend. They totally fit and don't look horrible or anything. That encouraged me to pull out my 14 from the closet and about half of them are wearable. I can totally button all of my size 14 pants but some of them give me a major muffin top! But that's so not the point. The point is I am basically a 14 now! Super excited. Must do more crunches. Need tighter abs and I need this abdominal fat to go away!
Tonight is my favorite exercise day of the week. I get 30 minutes of Abs and then Zumba!